By – Dr. Niti Kautish, Director Obstetrics & Gynaecology, Fortis Escorts Hospital Faridabad
WHAT A BEAUTIFUL WORLD IT WAS BACK IN 2019. Suddenly when the novel coronavirus hit China I used to wonder how are those brave souls struggling through the situation. Then one fine day when the first covid case was detected in our country there was only one thought in my mind. IS THIS PANDEMIC ACTUALLY SO CLOSE TO US..
DOCTORS were now superheroes leading the war from the front. War had just started with no definite weapons. Enemy was strong and we were already praying for it to end..Behind the scenes of fighting for each life we were also struggling to keep your own family safe from the invisible enemy which could accompany us home. Those sleepless nights at hospitals seemed endless. Hospital turned home and counting each breath became the only motive left. Suddenly one day I felt week. I knew what exactly it was.
COVID POSITIVE ..my reports read.
How much I wanted this to be wrong but NO it was for real. It was May 2021 and we were stuck with the wildest wave of COVID. Every day I used to get up with my worsening cold and heavy chest. I was in isolation and was waiting for it to end. Everyone wanted to get negative and so did I, but reasons were not the same. Theirs was to survive ,mine was to fight. I wanted to be on floors holding my patients hand. I knew how much over worked my collegues were and what absence of even single doctor means. I wanted to be there and not locked up in room ,that feeling of helplessness was tearing my soul apart. You must be thinking what fun was putting life at risk for others and wishing to go back. My answer to all those minds is ‘BEING A DOCTOR I HAD THIS BEAUTIFUL CHANCE OF SAVING HOPES..SO WHY WOULD I WANT TO MISS THAT..NOT EVERYDAY THE WORLD IS FIGHTING PANDEMIC’
Soon I was back to my place. Recovering from covid body was still week but my spirits even higher and heart all shattered with hearing sad news from all around. People were scared , broken and so were we doctors. But gradually the wave subsided creating voids that can never be filled. I will not say I came out strong but I came out, WE came out .thinking of those days a tear still rolls down my cheek We are still amidst the pandemic overcoming our pains of the losses and moving ahead with this new normal.I guess now I know what it means when they say LIFE GOES ON.